Kitten Play

Wow im feeling so much better! MUCH better…

To be honest everything that had been happening was making me so very unhappy… But today i woke up and understood many things i didnt before and i just feel so good!

I was listening to Emilie Autumn and i listened to this song i had forgoten that fits this one person… I now dedicate it to you (You know who you are). You said horrible things, you wanted me back after, you tried to scare my friends and loved ones… Well, this song says EVERYTHING i want you to hear… Those are my words, thoughts and feelings for you in this one song.

I love this person to no end… She is great… We are together… But today, she told me about some other person from her past… They seem to be doing good and im happy for that.

She told me they got intimate and that they had been holding it back for long time… Im ok with her and the one i love… the problem is that this person is probably not ok with sharing the one i love… And that means that sooner or latter she will make my loved one deside.

The one i love and this person… they have a story… I have been working on making mine… But its obvious i am no challenge.

Im worried… Im scared… I know Im willing to give her up if it makes her happy. I wont be happy for a while…

I love you my someone… But im more than sure you wont choose me. You wont ever find out that i wrote this… And you wont find out that i know your choise…